Friday, June 02, 2006
i'm sorry ):
i was feeling reflective today and i thought, i know we often go overboard, but i never knew it affected you so much. until today. ): why do you keep so much to yourself? i don't exactly think it's a very good idea. plus, if you keep it to yourself how are we supposed to know how you feel? and then, we'll just continue doing it because we don't know how you're thinking.
seriously. sometimes you don't need to be that nice. i mean, maybe you can tolerate really well but if you dont tell us then we wont know what you want and don't want right. maybe we still don't know you that well enough for you to open up to us. i don't know but i really hope you will. and just confess it when you don't feel good about something, or you don't want to do it. i mean, if you just tell us in a more firm way, we'll realise our limits and we wont force you or do it again.
it has been about seven months i guess? maybe you seem more open to us than before, but i still think you can open up more. tell us how you feel and stuff. i mean, now if i just suddenly say sorry to you it's kind of weird. because i'm not supposed to know? well, nevermind. i think i know my limits better now, and i will try not to cross that boundary line.
i know we've crossed it a million times now. time and time again, we've done it. but you never gave us a warning to stop what we're doing. maybe you could get angry for once? i never knew you were so troubled. i thought nothing ever troubled you or left you frustrated. it's the june holidays, you'll see much lesser of us and maybe that'll make you more happy. (: hopefully.
i'd just like you to know that whatever we do, we don't exactly have the mindset of hurting you or anything. we're just a bit playful and cheeky and mischievious, whatever you call it. we just like to have fun. and, because you never really gave us a warning sign, we just do it over and over again. maybe i should have been more...observant and sensitive to your feelings.
i'd just like to say i'm sorry ):
11:25 AM
